(Reposting an old 2009 TSMSS--thankfully in a different season in my journey of faith)
Pain ---> Beauty
My song today comes from my personal brokenness. A few of you have been aware of a 'numbness' that I have been experiencing and have prayed for me. (Thank you, you know who you are.) What do you know? From deep within, something is happening. God introduced me to a new blogging friend recently, Crown of Beauty, and on her blog, a certain post filtered straight through my 'fog' and the tears started flowing. Since then, she also had an insight about me as she read one of my posts, and that struck a chord as well. (Thank you, Lidj.)Then tonight I attended the first session of a conference entitled "Reflecting God's Beauty In A Broken World - Setting The Captives Free" focusing on the child sex slavery in Cambodia. I will write in greater detail on this in a later post because it is so important. But for this post, I want to share an illustration the speaker, Kathy Klassen spoke of. A young Vietnamese orphan had been adopted by a wonderful family and they tried to lavish her with love and all that they had. But they noticed that at meal times, she would barely eat and put away the dinner roll in her pocket. One night they heard a noise in her room. They went in to find her in the closet, surrounded by her stash of rolls and munching on one. It suddenly sunk in. This adopted child still believed she was an orphan.
That got to me. Yes, the Father has called me to be a daughter of the King, but my life suggests that I am not convinced of my new status. I am that orphan in the closet. That is why when I read the profile of Crown of Beauty, I said, "Wow! She knows it! She bears her crown of beauty regally!" Kathy says that we must confront our own brokenness. Laid out before God, it is transformed into a beauty that defies comparison. I absolutely loved it when she referred to Ezekiel 37 about God raising armies from the graveyard. He says to the dead bones --"Breathe!"
And this is my hope and prayer tonight for you who can identify with the words from Superchick, Beauty From Pain, may God breathe new life into the broken places and present you with a crown of beauty.
Please go to Amy's blog to hear more songs that minister.
26 comments:
Very meaningful post! Thank you so much.
As a Mom of 6 adopted children - this lesson speaks volumes to my heart. I think you just spoke something that I will share with my husband about one of our sons who has yet to bond to me after being home 2 years. Praise GOD!
I was that orphan in the closet for 2 years after coming to Christ. I could not accept my new status in life or who I really was. It took me a while to begin to allow all that He speaks of me to sink past my brain and into my heart. As my husband says it is the longest 12" in the world.
Last year - 3rd year of coming to Christ - I dropped to my knees literally and broke before Him. Throughout the year I kept breaking and breaking. I see that there are still some pieces I have not allowed to be fully broken in His presence. He has shown them to me in His O' so loving ways. Our walk is by faith - through patience we inherit the promises. I know that our sanctification takes times - we are not in this lifetime ever going to be perfect - these two simple truths have set me free and allowed me to let His grace sustain me and transform me.
Blessings to you!
Jill
I'll be praying for you!
Sita, this has struck a chord deep within me. I am due in class an hour from now, so I will have to wait to say more. I will be thinking about this all day - I so love your brave honesty!!!
The adopted child still believed she was an orphan.
Oh Sita, how that describes some of my past. If I had heard that song years ago while travelling roads of depression I'm sure it would have been my theme song. I'll never forget the day God found me hinding in my 'closet' and spoke this very truth to me. That is is the reason for my blog address "Princess Joyful". Because it is often still a continual struggle to believe all that is mine in Christ, I have "Princess" visuals all around my home to help my mind and heart focus on the truth. I have been adopted and I am loved. There is no more need to hide.
Sita, I am so thankful for all the ways the Lord is showing Himself to you. I am continuing to pray. May the door on the closet close and may you have freedom to feast at His table.
Love & prayers,
Joy
Thank you for sharing you heart. This is a beautiful song. I had not heard this one of Superchick's.
What a beautiful song! I have never heard it before and especially liked the line "I cling to Your promise, there will be a dawn". Your testimony was inspiring.
Thanks for sharing Lidj's blog.
I enjoyed it very much.
I know we don't talk as often as we used to, but you are so special to me and I think of you all the time.
I'm so glad you were ministered to recently and pray such amazing blessings for you in 2009!
Love,
Valerie
Thanks for sharing your heart!
Praying for you...
Darlene
That is beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing! I can identify. I think most of us struggle at some point with this issue.
Bless you!
Love,
Beth
Hi Sita,
I listened to the song Beauty From Pain, and found it to be very beautiful, even the way it was sung. Thank you, too for sharing the pain of your heart. I thank God that He has used my words to bring a healing touch your heart... We are all just fellow travelers on the journey closer to His heart... and we all are in various stages of healing. Praying for you, as I know you are, for me. Thanks for the beautiful prayer you prayed for me after reading my last post.
Blessings,
Lidj
Praying for you, Sita ~
i love the way we are inter-connected in our blogging world ... the Lord brings us to the places we need to be ... to hear ... to minister ... or be ministered too ...
blessings on you as you continue journeying closer to Jesus ...
It is very difficult for me to watch videos because of my slow connection, but the words of that song touched me.
Thank you for praying for my family in NB.
Anju reads your blog and is blessed by it.
Going to listen to the song in a minute, but I wanted to lead you over to "a noble stirring" on my blog when you have the chance. It talks about how God has chosen us for his bride. It fits with what you are saying here about feeling like an orphan.
I love you Sita. I hope you see some sunshine in the midst of the dark this week.
On a fun note, we're expecting snow tonight! They've already cancelled school. Can you believe it? I know. We're just a bunch of hicks down here. But for two youngin's that rarely get to see snow, much less play in it, well...they're just about undone over the entire thing!
peace~elaine
Love the song.
peace~elaine
Oh Sita,
I can barely type through my tears...I don't know if you are aware of what my husband and I have gone through but we have separated as of February. I have been so lost as to how to help him and I pray each day for his salvation. I was recently led to "setting captives free" and he has been going to that counseling!
He loves it. He is still learning who he is in Christ and yet he has been teaching Bible studies for years...however, as a child being told "he would never amount to anything" and being sexually abused by his own grandparents he has never truly accepted that Jesus could love him truly, completely, madly, wildly, passionately. He is still learning to grasp it.
Your honesty and transparency gives me hope. And I have felt pretty hopeless. Thank you Sita and to God be the glory!
What a powerful song and story Sita. I'll be praying for you. Thank you for always being faithful to join in TSMSS. Blessings, Amy
Debra,
I had no idea. My heart breaks for you, keep praying, keep praying...His work is happening.
Love, Sita
Amy, thank you. This was a repost for me because of a note I got from an hurting friend. Must be a God-thought because of the way it has ministered this morning. God has rought me a long way since I posted this. Thank you.
Amen
What a beautiful song! You are right it definitely ministers to people. Glad you are doing better. It is nice to meet you!
until next time... nel
New song for me. I understand the numbness. Lately I have felt that. I know that I am still saved in my mind but I just feel numb and can't seem to experience the joy of the Lord. Thanks for sharing.
Pain... Very bad, but also needed... To learn us about the Lord, who came for us on the Cross.. Can I pray for You?
Michelle, Nel, Madonna and Zimbabwe, thank you for dropping by...Madonna, in those seasons of numbness, I rest on the facts of His Presence, His character. Zimbabwe, this is an old 2009 post and I am in a different season, but I never no to prayer! Thank you so much. You have such a heart of compassion.
Blessings to all,
Sita
I love that scripture about turning ashes into beauty. I also wrote a song about pain on my music website, "Touch My Heart".
As I read your Blog the words of Jesus mother came to me:
My soul magnifies the Lord, and my spirit rejoices in God my Savour.
Luke 1:46-47
You love Him, and that love shines forth to empower other. Bless you, you are the apple of His eye. Hugs
Hi Cathy, I'm going to check that out later...thx, dear sister!
Mary, what a thoughtful and sweet thing to say...thank you so much, you made my day!
welcome to my blog...blessings to you..
Sita
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