Friday, May 30, 2008

Then Sings My Soul Saturdays

After just studying about the kindness and goodness of God, I cannot help but savor that it springs from the deep love of Jesus. I want it to roll over like a mighty ocean on me and any of those who just need to be bulldozed with His love today. Click on the title to hear an old fashioned rendition. Then join Amy at Signs, Miracles and Wonders for more Then Sings My Souls Saturdays.

OH THE DEEP, DEEP LOVE OF JESUS

sung by The Haven Quartet


Oh the deep, deep love.

The love of Jesus;

The deep, deep love.

O the deep, deep love of Jesus,

Vast, unmeasured, boundless, free!

Rolling as a mighty ocean,

In its fullness over me;

Underneath me, all around me,

Is the current of Thy love;

Leading onward, leading homeward,

To my glorious rest above.

Oh the deep, deep love.

The love of Jesus;

The deep, deep love.

O the deep, deep love of Jesus,

Love of ev'ry love the best!

Tis an ocean vast of blessing,

Tis a haven sweet of rest.

O the deep, deep love of Jesus,

Tis a heav'n of heav'ns to me;

And it lifts me up to glory,

For it lifts me up to Thee.

Oh the deep, deep love.

The love of Jesus;

The deep, deep love.

The Kindness and Goodness of God

"Because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in." Proverbs 3:12

"...Without kindness, goodness becomes harsh and self-righteous.
Without goodness, kindness becomes indulgent tolerance..."
Moore, Beth, Living Beyond Yourself

I must say I thoroughly enjoyed my homework. While I have a deep yearning attraction for the fruit of peace, it is the kindness and goodness of God that keeps me going.

Kindness comes from the Greek, chrestotes, meaning a tender heart and nurturing spirit. God is El Shaddai, the Father of sufficiency, the nurturing parent.

Goodness comes from the Greek word, agathosune, meaning benevolent and active goodness. This trait does not spare rebuke and sharpness to cause good in others.

Beth points out that the two pair up to make us both 'shrewd as snakes and innocent as doves.'

God reveals His tenderness (kindness) towards us in many ways. We have been chosen as His treasured possession. (See Deuteronomy 7:6). He has said that He will never forget us, even though a nursing mother might. We are engraved into the palms of His Hands. (See Isaiah 49:16)

I like the picture that Beth gives of His Throne transformed into a Rocking Chair when He pulls His fearful, overwhelmed child into His arms, saying "SHhhh..it's OK, I'm here..." Zephaniah 3:17 says, "The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with His love, he will rejoice over you with singing."

Some of us find it hard to see God as that tender nurturing parent, especially if our earthly parents were harsh and critical and vindictive in their parenting. Beth says we "relate more readily to God's sovereignty and severity than to His tender mercies." But just remember from this post here, unless we become like children to relate to God, how can we be godly parents to our own children? I was so blessed that my earthly father made it so easy for me to relate to the kindness of God. For many, it is not so. I invite you to boldly ask God to reveal the parenting love you always longed for, to reveal the delight He feels for you.

The goodness of God, on the other hand, may be either a pleasant or painful experience, but always with the intent of being beneficial for the kingdom. God predestined each of us for a 'good work." Ephesians 2:10 tells us that our works were assigned in advance. It is up to us to draw close to Him for Him to reveal it to us.

Beth looks at 2 Timothy 3:16-17 where we see God using His Word to equip us for good work by teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training for righteousness. Some of His Word, like His miracles and healings, are pleasant. However, we also see Jesus rebuking the sacrilegious use of the temple, not healing Paul's thorn in the flesh so that in his (Paul's) weakness, He (Jesus) could be strong. We see in Acts how persecution of the church caused them to be scattered around the world. The gospel then spread around the world. Finally, when Christ was crucified, the veil, His flesh, was rent from top to bottom so we could have access to the Holy of Holies, to our Father.

Beth paints a beautiful picture to illustrate the dual role of kindness and confrontational goodness. As a mother, there are many times when my sons do not respond favorably to my guidance. I may find it necessary to discipline them with words and or actions. This is so that my child does not grow up to be a contentious adult. What keeps me from 'abusing' my authority to this child is my tenderhearted disposition to my child. Beth says "the disposition of kindness safeguards the dispensing of goodness....you must be yielded to God to be a proper vessel of confrontational goodness."

Again, this brand of kindness and goodness are not possible without the Holy Spirit.

Father,
I come to You on behalf of those who have never known a kind parent. I ask You to lavish them with Your tenderness for them in ways that show them they are Your treasured possession. Allow them to glimpse the delight You take in them. Then, Father, even as they ask You why there has been so much trauma in their lives, show them the eternal profit in their characters, in the kingdom. Show them Your unique purpose designed for them. Thank You, Lord. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Monday, May 26, 2008

Living Beyond Yourself - Session 6 - Patience Waits

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience...
Galatians 5:22a
1. Love never fails. 2. Joy cometh. 3. Peace rules. 4. Patience waits.
As I said in my previous post, this was a tough topic, slicing through all layers of pretense.
Beth divided this into 3 parts:
1. The Complication of Patience:
-We are called to wait patiently for the Lord as He waits patiently for the lost. (James 5:7-9,11)

2. The Call to Patience:
-Quoting from Colossians 3:12-13 and Ephesians 4:1-2, Beth notes that patience is coupled with bearing one another. The Greek definition of forbearance encompasses both holding up and holding back.

3. The Completion of Patience:
-James 1:2-4 says that practicing patience helps complete something lacking in us. Like gold under tremendous heat, our 'impurities' come to the surface, sometimes dribbling up, or sometimes explosively, so that the Refiner can skim it away. That 'heat' in our lives are people, or 'patient-ees' as Beth calls them, who:
-bring out the worst in us.
-keep us from thinking too highly of ourselves.
-keep our pretenses from working.
We actually do not have to go far away to find such people. As a mother and wife, we live with them! I mean, I would have been 'perfect' or at least a whole lot holier, if my husband and children just cooperated with me! Aha! As Beth says, it has taken a while, but I am finally seeing that my husband is just who I needed to become a holy vessel. Unlike other relationships which I can avoid, I have to work on this one, not only for us, but we have children looking on, picking up our attitudes, our relationship dynamics. That is scary and humbling. It is here that I acknowledge my complete need for the Lord to fill me and change me, because I do not have it in me.

2Corinthians 4:10-12 talks about God working 'life' in one person, and 'death' in another. It just could be that God is using that 'patientee' in your life to crucify that old nature in you, and bring to life His life in the 'patientee'. When you come to the point that that 'patientee' is no longer bringing out the worst in you, but the best of God's patience, then patience has done its work. Oh yeah.

There is one special friend I have who underwent serious demoralization in the workplace where her supervisors are Christians. She was crying much of the time. I used to get so angry and wanted her to quit badly. She stayed for the longest while, continually surrendering to God, continually forgiving even while hurting. She knew that God was allowing everything to change her heart. Finally, a new door opened, and she left with a clean conscience. How beautiful she is to me. She is an example to me of the fruit of the Spirit - patience. Thank you, S.

We live in a culture that breeds impatience, a culture of entitlement. Look at how people react here when there is a power cut, or flight cancellation due to weather conditions. Then look at how my friend, Amrita, reacts. God has been training her in a life full of interruptions and she blesses me with her attitude.

Father, please help me. I'm afraid of seeing those 'impurites' head-on. But I know it needs to be dealt with. Help me not to run away as I am prone to do, but look to everything that You have allowed to touch my life today, as a lesson from You. Give me the wisdom, the grace, the knowledge, the patience. I love You for the patience You continually pour out for me. I would have given up on me a long time ago. Fill me please, with Your Spirit.
In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Patience..you'll need some to read this...

The Expression of God's Patience: SALVATION
2Peter 3:15 ..."Bear in mind that our Lord's patience means salvation."
I have to admit, this week's homework was a tad difficult. Why, Beth? I don't want to deal with all that stuff. Who knew 'patience' would bring up so much 'impatience' in me?

First of all, there were two meanings to the word as used in the Bible. The first, from the Greek word, hupomone, is endurance in relation to things or circumstances in our life. It is often translated as perseverance and endurance in the NIV version in the Bible.

The second meaning from the Greek word, makrothumia, is the quality of the fruit of the Spirit, and the one we are focusing on in this study. It means "forbearance...self-restraint before proceeding to action...patience in respect to persons." While we may receive hupomone in answer to prayer for endurance in a tough crisis, the makrothumia is the release of the fruit of the Spirit. We cannot conjure it up. It is God expressing Himself through us.

2Peter 3:9 says "He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish..". 2Peter 3:15 says "Bear in mind that our Lord's patience means salvation..." We are shown clearly that it is God's mercy that prompts patience.

To understand it more fully, Beth points out that the opposite of patience or makrothumia is krino which means to pass judgement upon. Anyone ever watch how Judge Judy quickly sums up someone's character and passes judgement? She may be 'right-on' many times based on her life experience, but I am certain that she has also been faulty in her assessment at times. Why? Because she cannot see into the heart of man. Only God has that X-ray heart vision. That is why He 'delays' judgement, because He has mercy.

Beth (Living Beyond Yourself) points out 6 reasons why we must not judge others: (Romans 2:1-5, The Holy Bible, NIV Version)


1You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things. 2Now we know that God's judgment against those who do such things is based on truth. 3So when you, a mere man, pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape God's judgment? 4Or do you show contempt for the riches of his kindness, tolerance and patience, not realizing that God's kindness leads you toward repentance?
5But because of your stubbornness and your unrepentant heart, you are storing up wrath against yourself for the day of God's wrath, when his righteous judgment will be revealed
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1. When we judge others, we cause God to be harder on us. (vs.1)
2. We do many of the same things we condemn in others. (vs.1)
3. We do not know the whole truth. (vs.2)
4. We are mere humans. (vs.3)
5. When we judge others, we are judging God. (vs.4)
6. God's judgement is always righteous. Ours is tainted by flesh. (vs.5)

More reasons NOT to judge...(Matthew 7:1-5, The Holy Bible, NIV Version)

1"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
3"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.
7. We risk application of the same type of judgement to ourselves. (vs.1-2)
8. We cannot judge the speck of sawdust in another's eye because of the planks in our own. (vs.3-4)

And more... James 4:11-12..

11Brothers, do not slander one another. Anyone who speaks against his brother or judges him speaks against the law and judges it. When you judge the law, you are not keeping it, but sitting in judgment on it. 12There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you—who are you to judge your neighbor?

9. "There is only one lawgiver and judge." (vs.12)
10. Only God has noble purpose in His judgment.

Final reason NOT to judge...John 8:14-18

14Jesus answered, "Even if I testify on my own behalf, my testimony is valid, for I know where I came from and where I am going. But you have no idea where I come from or where I am going. 15You judge by human standards; I pass judgment on no one. 16But if I do judge, my decisions are right, because I am not alone. I stand with the Father, who sent me. 17In your own Law it is written that the testimony of two men is valid. 18I am one who testifies for myself; my other witness is the Father, who sent me."

11. Just like Christ's, our judgement would have to be completely consistent with God's. He must agree with us for our judgement to be valid.

Ouch! OK, have you ever been misunderstood? Have you ever been unfairly judged? Ouch! That so hurts! Then again, have I done that? Ouch! More times than I even know. My poor children, especially my husband and teenage son who do not... ahem ... express themselves like me, I elect to express what I feel is in their hearts. Oooh! I have erred here so many times, simply because, we think differently, we are wired differently. I have had people 'judge' me based on their experiences of people who look and sound like me. Ouch!

With that in mind, I come to forgiveness. Beth refers to the parable of the merciless servant, who having been forgiven by the king of a huge debt, goes on to prosecute a fellow servant when he is unable to pay a tiny debt. The king's forgiveness was prompted by patience which was perfected by mercy. Beth says, "Patience is the vessel through which God pours His mercy. Mercy is fuelled by forgiveness." We have to forgive everyone for everything.

Yikes! You see why this was so hard? Colossians 3:13 tells that we are to forgive "as the Lord forgave you." How exactly is that, you ask? Beth pinpoints the following characteristics:

-He forgives and covers all confessed sin.

-He removes our sins from us as far as the east is from the west.

-God keeps no written record of wrongs.

-God keeps no mental record of wrongs. (i.e. memory)

Whew! And if you follow through like God says, you start with a CLEAN slate. You will feel a freedom to soar because you are no longer manacled, nor are you keeping anyone chained to your back.

Take time to pray this prayer with me:

From pride and self-will;
from desire to have our own way in all things;
from overweening love of our own ideas
and blindness to the value of others;
Save us and help us,
we humbly ask You, O Lord.
From all jealousy,
whether of equals or superiors;
from grudging others success;
from absence of submission and eagerness for authority;
From all hasty words of impatience;
from taunting words of sarcasm;
from responding to others in irritation;
from all infirmity of temper in provoking and being provoked;
from love of unkind gossip,
and from all idle words that may hurt others;
Save us and help us,
we humbly ask You, O Lord.
From all arrogance in dealing with other people,
from strife and partisanship and division
among our fellow believers,
from magnifying our certainties to condemn all differences,
Save us and help us,
we humbly ask You, O Lord."

(Taken from the Southwell Litany)

Friday, May 23, 2008

It Is Well With My Soul - Wintley Phipps

Yesterday the pain I felt was intolerable, like the pain of thousands spread across the land, like the pain Jesus was feeling. Today I know that it is still well with my soul. Listen and be blessed.
With agape for you from His heart,
~Sita~

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Steven Curtis Chapman Story Behind the Song

Cinderella by Steven Curtis Chapman

In honour of Maria Sue Chapman dancing with Jesus right now.
Our love, thoughts and prayers go out to the Chapman family today.

Daddy, please, please...

Before today, I had never deliberately listened to Steven Curtis Chapman.
Today, I know enough about him to cry with him, to have my heart pierced for him. I have played his song, Cinderella, over and over again this morning, thinking about the heart behind it, that Daddy's heart, a heart for the fatherless, a heart that placed his family second only to God.

Today, I think of Sumi, arms aching for Jenna. I see many Cinderellas, including Maria Sue and Jenna dancing with Daddy.
Today, I think of the mother who God knows by name, bereft of possibly her only child with China's one-child rule. Does she know You, Lord? This deep well of love that I feel for her can only come from You. So, I cry out for her. Intercede, Lord, Intercede. Does she know You can bring her peace? Will you direct her steps to You? Daddy, please, please?

Both Steven's and Sumi's words drip with the love, the grace, the Presence of Jesus' Himself. I know that Jesus looks upon the grief all around the world today...and Jesus weeps too. He wept when He saw the grief at Lazarus' death.
Cover us this day, Lord. I rest in You for my heart breaks with the grieving today.
Pour out Your peace amidst the pain this day.
In the Name of Jesus, the Lamb whose Blood was shed for us, Amen.

[You may leave your condolences at this blog set up in memory of Maria.]

Monday, May 19, 2008

Living Beyond Yourself- Session 5 -Peace

Galatians 5:22..."But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace...


When I thought about this session, the image of a smooth, glassy sea came into my mind. A shiny serenity, something like the picture above.

Therefore, I was taken aback at the content of last night's session, surprised at what encompasses peace. Have you heard the phrase "peace rules"? Peace is aligned with authority. In Isaiah 9:6-7, we see that the increase of peace is directly proportional to the increase of Christ's government. Peace is the result of Christ's applied authority.

That makes sense, does it not? Just look at how society runs. Without submission to the governing rules, there would be anarchy, chaos, no peace. Colossians 3:15 says,"Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts." It follows then that without submission to Christ's authority in my life, peace is not possible. My every day life is pervaded with a nagging disquiet inside that I cannot shut off. Our natural sinful nature actually resists peace all day long. I cannot conjure up peace. Like love and joy, it is the fruit of the Holy Spirit in me.

Beth talks about what peace is not. It is not about peace keeping. A peace keeper attempts to keep peace at any cost. This kind of peace is marked by its false nature. Jeremiah 8:11 says,"They dress the wound of my people as though it were not serious, "Peace, peace," they say, when there is no peace."
What does that bring to mind for you? Think about certain family reunions. For many people, it is one of the most stressful events, simply because a 'false' peace exists to cover the 'dirt' that no one dares talk about. Sinful generational patterns are perpetuated because of 'peacekeepers' who do not want to deal with sin.

Beth goes on to discuss a peace maker. Peace making involves discipline. Hebrews 12:11 says "No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it."
She categorized the opponents of peacemaking into 2 groups:
1. The keepers of false peace: motivated by fear and distrust.
They try to keep everything together using enormous amounts of energy to push down and deny the toxic undercurrents that need to be dealt with.
2. The lovers of contention: motivated by misery, power and lack of discipline.
They are the kind of people who refuse to grant forgiveness so that they keep the other person in turmoil. It is a child who is not disciplined and who grows up to be a contentious adult.

Let us look to Christ to create in us that wellspring that brings true peace. Peace came through the Cross. We cannot have the peace of God until we have made peace with God through the Cross of Christ.
If you are reading this post today and your life is in turmoil, I invite you to invite Him into your heart. Ephesians 2:14-16 (NLT) says,
14 For Christ himself has brought peace to us. He united Jews and Gentiles into one people when, in his own body on the cross, he broke down the wall of hostility that separated us. 15 He did this by ending the system of law with its commandments and regulations. He made peace between Jews and Gentiles by creating in himself one new people from the two groups. 16 Together as one body, Christ reconciled both groups to God by means of his death on the cross, and our hostility toward each other was put to death.
May you experience the peace that passes all understanding as you submit to His authority.
~Love, Sita~

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Sandi Patty His Eye Is On The Sparrow

How much more is His eye on us?

I got an email from my nephew the other day in which he spoke about how tough it was at university and it brought back memories.
I remember hearing my name at graduation, followed by..."Dean's Honour List"..., and I knew, I knew, that it was absolutely the grace of God.
It was a time where I was so emotionally crippled that I was fully carried by God, a time when my intimacy with God grew in leaps and bounds, a time in which I fell totally in love with Jesus.

Can you look back at certain events and marvel, "How on earth did I do that?" Maybe, because His eye was on you...

May you be fully cognizant of the fact that His eye is on you this week.

~Love, Sita~

Why do you pray?

The following snippet came in my email this morning and I thought it worth sharing. Reflect on why you pray. Then pray as God leads. Let your heart overflow.

"In a scene from Shadowlands, a film based on the life of C.S. Lewis, Lewis has returned to Oxford from London, where he has just been married to Joy Gresham, an American woman, in a private Episcopal ceremony performed at her hospital bedside. She is dying from cancer, and, through the struggle with her illness, she and Lewis have been discovering the depth of their love for each other.

As Lewis arrives at the college where he teaches, he is met by Harry Harrington, an Episcopal priest, who asks what news there is. Lewis hesitates; then, deciding to speak of the marriage and not the cancer, he says, "Ah, good news, I think, Harry. Yes, good news."

Harrington, not aware of the marriage and thinking that Lewis isreferring to Joy's medical situation, replies, "I know how hard you've been praying.... Now, God is answering your prayer."

"That's not why I pray, Harry," Lewis responds. "I pray because I can't help myself. I pray because I'm helpless. I pray because the need flows out of me all the time, waking and sleeping. It doesn't change God; it changes me.""

Thomas G. Long

Friday, May 16, 2008

Peace...

I have been looking forward to this topic in my homework. Peace. A word that embodies so much for me. I love this word. That is why I chose the blog title "sanctum"--it envisions a place of peace. Again, I cannot conjure it up. It originates only in His Presence. A fruit of the Spirit.

I did two posts today, one showing uninhibited frivolity, the other, uninhibited grief. How on earth do I tie these two expressions together. I used to wonder how I could smile or ever feel joy when I knew such pain was around me. God seems to have gifted me with a heightened sense of empathy, so I can get inside someone else's pain and cry out for them. This has been and is sometimes quite hard. Then again, this is one woman who just loves to laugh. Such a contrast in me.

In Scripture, peace and joy seem to be inextricably intertwined. Romans 15:13 says, "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." We can logically assume that where there is no joy, there is no peace. The absence of peace is described by Job in Job 3:26, "I have no peace, no quietness; I have no rest, but only turmoil." Beth describes a lack of peace like this:
"...a sleepless night filled with tossing and turning,
fear that lodges itself like a pine cone in your stomach,
a mind and body in perpetual motion,
memories that imprison you repeatedly,
unending strife, hopelessness,
and the general, yet horrible, sense of being out of control..."

Sounds familiar? It is much too familiar to me. It seems like it is part of me, who I am. Maybe that is why the word 'peace' is so appealing to me. Why Jesus is so appealing to me. Ephesians 2:14 starts, "For He Himself is our peace..." because of Calvary.

Because of Christ, His presence, His Promise to never leave me, His Promise to provide, I can have peace while feeling pain and grief. Perfect love casts out fear which leaves peace. Because of Christ, I can have peace in ALONENESS, in PROVISION, in the STORM, in the WAIT, in the TEARS, and finally in DEATH. The refrain from Like a River Glorious says it all:

Stayed upon Jehovah,
Hearts are fully blest;
Finding as he promised,
Perfect peace and rest.

Check out this amazing sermon I saw at A Planting of the Lord to know the origin of our peace; warning! It will amaze you!



Move over, Miley...

...for the cool..ahem... brothers...(-;...watch for the very 'heart-tugging' moment when one's head collides with another's chin....

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Living Beyond Yourself-Session 4- Joy - Well, DUH!

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...But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy...(Galatians 5:22a)
While some people are still dealing with last week's topic of rejection and love, Beth starts to talk about joy. Is she totally clueless? Well, no. Simply because joy as poured forth by the Spirit defies pain; an ongoing delight with God as the source, while going through the pain. It is a deep and profound emotion that marks the mature Christian. I have a long way to go, as even now I struggle to write about it. I cannot conjure it up. The source and origin is God, Himself.
Beth talks about Jesus' joy from Hebrews 12:1-2, 10-13, where we see the objective cause of Christ's joy was "in bringing many sons to glory..", while His motivation for enduring the pain of the Cross was "the joy set before Him.."
She noted that we can have joy as well, for we know that ..."weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning."
Joy, a difficult concept to grab in the midst of a crisis, or ongoing pain. What is it?
A secular source (Merriam Webster's dictionary), defines joy as:
1 a : the emotion evoked by well-being, success, or good fortune or by the prospect of possessing what one desires.
We often confuse it with "happiness" which is more of the temporary emotion that is triggered by and controlled by outward circumstances. However, the joy that Beth talks about is the result of:
- realizing that our names are written in heaven.
- discovering the Person, power, and plan of God in our circumstances.
- restoration.
- "remaining" in Christ.
- relating God's way to God's people.
Beth talked about a particular book signing for a children's book she wrote, where the kids were asked to dress up as part of a royal kingdom. All the little girls dressed up as little princesses, while the boys for the most part liked the part of the brave knights. What struck her was how 'comfortable' they were in their roles, like they were 'made for it.' She likened this to our inheritance as believers, as the King's adopted children. While 'children' can accept this easily, we adults learn to discredit our value with the lies perpetrated by Satan. We forget that indeed, we are something! My teenager has a saying whenever I tell him that someone has remarked that he is a handsome, fine young gentleman. "Well, duh, Mom!" (Like, uh.. factual, Mom!)
Is that how you would respond to the fact that you are royalty, His fair beloved? Well, duh!
Beth mentioned that royalty knows it is royalty and therefore is able to be humble and serve. It brought back a memory of my university days, where kids from, let's say, a 'nouveau-riche' background, or perhaps new immigrants, would really 'dress up' in the trendiest fashions for school. Whereas I would meet students with old faded clothes whose upbringing and family were from, let's say, 'old-wealth'. One was always trying to prove they were 'something' using outer means, while the other who had the inner 'status' had nothing to prove outwardly and therefore could dress any way they wanted to be comfortable.
As a new immigrant, I have found myself trying to prove myself constantly. Finally, I had to give up, because I had no energy left. Some people spend their entire lives trying to win the approval of parents or other significant people. God has been teaching me the truth that I am who He says I am. He has been washing the lies that Satan has tried to carve into my soul that I am irrelevant.
I can honestly say that I can now step back and with joy declare that the only 'cloak' I am wearing is His cloak, the cloak of acceptance, the cloak of a princess in His kingdom.
Father, I ask You to restore unto me the joy of my salvation. Remind me daily that I am who You say I am, so that I may be 'wowed'. May Your Spirit pour forth His joy into me and through me to spill on to the despair around me. Let Your JOY be my strength from this day forth and forever. Amen.
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Here is part of an essay that addresses joy by Earl Palmer: [read the whole essay by clicking on the link.]
Facets of genuine joy. According to Lewis, joy is a meaningful acceleration in the rhythm of our relationship with God, quite opaque to evil and the evil one, because all evil is baffled and offended by the essence of joy. Lewis has captured the biblical sense of the word. Joy is the result of truth. Joy is the "gigantic secret" of God (G.K. Chesterton) that the world could never have expected, but it clears the air so that we see things as they really are.
Joy causes celebration. Gladness and song go with joy; the slightest witticisms cause laughter when joy is present. There's an energy in joy that cures fatigue and discouragement. This is what James says in his letter to churches that face persecution: "Count it all joy when you face trials knowing that God's faithfulness lasts."
Joy has a rhythm
. Jesus unites peace with joy in his Thursday night discourse. Joy is a quietness as much as an exuberance. Together the two create a fundamental rhythm.

Joy is presence. It describes our relationship with God. Joy comes from knowing the Lord and knowing that the Lord is nearby. In the New Testament, joy is related to prayer and friendship with God. Jesus invites his disciples to pray so their joy might be full (John 15:11-17).

Joy is a protection. Quite opaque to evil and the evil one, joy is a mystery to evil just as laughter can be a sign of the dignity and resilience of brave hearts in the face of danger.

In J.R.R. Tolkien's story The Lord of the Rings, Frodo and his friend Sam Gamgee laugh out loud high on the dangerous reaches of the dark tower where laughter had never been heard. Their laughter causes quakes on that mountain that had so long been under the oppressive control of evil. Their laughter was defiant and innocent and profoundly good at the same moment. It was good because it had its source in joy, and that made it powerful as well as destructive against the powers of evil.
Evil cannot understand joy. The devil is more austere and serious than God is, which makes us stop and think that if we are to feel at home in heaven, we will need to enjoy joy because "joy is the serious business of heaven" (G.K. Chesterton). It should also be the serious business of our lives and of our ministry.

Earl Palmer is pastor of University Presbyterian Church in Seattle, Washington.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Mother's Day Award


There is a special award that I would like to make to a very special lady. She was the first one to 'spot' me on LPM's blog and sent me a note. Since then, I have been the recipient of her care and compassion and prayer. From the comments on her blog, you will note that she goes around and touches many with her love, like a mom to bloggers. She loves deeply.


This is your award, Valerie. Happy Mother's Day. Please copy and paste to your blog. I'm not sure how you do these things yet, but I wanted so much to create something for you.

For my Mom...

BindyaHappy Mother's Day
to my beautiful Mommy...

Words cannot describe

the emotions that are evoked

when I look upon your countenance.

My beautiful mother, can it be...

People would look at you

and not comprehend

the sacrifices that you have made...

for your children.

On your wedding day,

people came from far and wide,

for the news of your beauty had spread.

But, you, the youthful bride, had no idea

of the future spread before you.

But...

Your Heavenly Father did.

And because of you, dear mother,

a young woman of Brahmin descent,

now of grafted Abrahamic descent,

a woman God called to Himself

through a travelling evangelist,

because of you, and your heart for the living God,

because of your persistent prayer,

your feisty faith,

a dogged faithfulness,

I am here,

a woman who longs after her God,

who will not let go

no matter how high the waves rise,

simply because my mother prayed.

I honour you, dear Mommy,

for no one but God knows,

that you literally lay down your life

for your children.

May the God Who knows and sees all

overwhelm you with

His loving kindness today and everyday

for the rest of your life.

With love, prayers, and thoughts,

Your daughter,

~Sita~

Proverbs 31 (http://www.bible.com/)

25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;

she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,

and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household

and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;

her husband also, and he praises her:
29 "Many women do noble things,

but you surpass them all."

Friday, May 9, 2008

1976 Seattle Billy Graham Crusade - Evie - Pass It On

What a blast from the past! This certainly ages those of us who know her. I used to just love her dimples! And our youth group used to love to sing this song on guitar! Enjoy and be blessed.

The Power of Motherhood

Got this in my email today....


A Missionary's Vision
From: 'The Power of Motherhood' book by Nancy Campbell


After marriage God called me to the mission field -

A little bundle needing all my care,

A disciple in touch with my life, obedient to all he hears.

Then came some more all in a row.

Everywhere I went, six little arrows in tow.

God had to call me again to His mission field.

I answered, 'To China, to Africa, to Israel, oh where?'

His voice was clear, soft and gentle. My ministry arranged -

'My child, you are to polish our arrows,

Preparing them for My call to spread my

Words of life for other nations to see.

''Lord,' I cried, 'Loneliness surrounds my soul,

No other woman stands with me answering your call.

The sacrifice is great.

'Women give way to another's voice, pulling them away

from their home, far from the quiver.'

Once more I pleaded, 'May I go too, Lord, I feel the call

To share with the lost, Life giving words,

To feed the hungry a satisfying meal.'

'My child,' Jesus replied, 'You share with your

children salvation and truth.

Feed them meals under your roof.

Discipline them, train them and then lie down in peace,

For sacrificial love have you given to make the world right.

Arise in the morning, open My book,

Teach them into My eyes they must look.'

'Yes, Lord, I replied, 'But should I serve you in a more obvious way?'

'Child, my sweet child,' God spoke once more.

I anointed you to do this work - the high calling of Motherhood.

To show our children the need for my love.'

'Lord,', I sought out, still not fully convinced,

'Should I sew for those in thread barren clothes, a Dorcas, a Martha?'

'Sit at my feet, my child, listen to me.

Your daughter needs dresses, your sons warm shirts,

The button of your husband's coat still lies on the table.

Pick up your mantle, the rod of Aaron.

Lead my women back to their home.

'Yes, Lord.' Filled and content, I took my position in God's mission field.

Hungry faces graced my bedside.

Clothed in God's mantle, children at my side,

I prepared breakfast.

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Just testing...

In case you see random posting of old photos--just testing my scanner etc...I'm a-learning..!

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Rejoicing in growth...

In a blog today I shared in a mother's rejoicing over her son using the potty today. It seems like such a long time since I did that for my sons. With each step they take that marks independence, I rejoice.
During the last weekend I was honoured to witness how my older son has grown spiritually. First, I was so alarmed to see him push his brother down while playing with a large group. It was a hard push from a teenager to a small 10-year-old, who immediately retaliated with kicking... and kicking... and kicking...
I chased them and put a stop to it, not before catching the look on my 10-year-old's face. He was angry, yes, but, I could see hurt quite plainly. I called to my teenager, "That was much too hard..." He looked at me, eyes hard to read.
Then not long after, I witnessed him pulling his brother aside, leaning down to talk and then high-fiving him. I knew it. He had just apologized and restored good will. A moment later, I saw him making room for his little brother in his chair. I could just 'see' the joyful look that says "I-am-loved" on my little son's face. (He is very transparent in his emotions unlike my older son.)
YES!
My favorite pic showing they are in each other's heart forever...


Growth! In Christ's character. Humbling himself to say sorry. Repentance and restoration. Thank You, Lord.
Later on, I listened as my teenager uncharacteristically began to 'evaluate' other teams,
... Team A took quizzing much too seriously. (They were the ones who could not celebrate other teams and had to win.). Team B, had a mixture of those who took it too seriously and those who knew, well, it was just quizzing. Team C pretty much had a good balance in how they viewed it.....
Last year, I spotted something he wrote for a class and how he had observed some parents of another team being snobby. He did not condemn them, just remarked, "too bad."He went on to applaud his youth pastor and how he spoke about the God he loved.

My son is growing in his abstract thinking, learning about Jesus, learning about sinful behaviour, his and others'. My heart sings as I see him growing in the wisdom of the Lord. The comment most often given by his teachers was "he has much insights to offer the class..."

This is my prayer: that my sons would know the fear of the Lord, which is the beginning of wisdom, which they need to make choices that glorify our Lord. Thank You, Lord.

Sandi Patty - How Great Thou Art

I found this on another blog today and it brought me to my knees in tears in humble adoration. God used Sandi Patti's voice to pour His grace into my hurting heart many years ago.

May you close your eyes and be transported into heaven as you listen.

I dedicate this to my friends, Esteban, who is now with the Lord, and to Solange, who both were with me when Sandi Patti ministered to us in university days.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Session 3: Living Beyond Yourself - Rejection

"Love never fails."
1 Corinthians 13:8
What a powerful session! Even though I was totally wiped out from the weekend, I felt that tug of the Spirit to attend. Beth addressed rejection and how it affects our ability to love. She described rejection as someone testing and examining our 'qualifications' and then spitting us out. Ooh, does that not hurt? I don't know about you, but I have felt that sting, that humiliation, that shame, that betrayal. And the deeper you have loved, the deeper is that pain.

She goes on to address the wounds of rejection that go deeper and last longer than other types of injuries. For instance, to avoid deep pain, we intentionally love in a 'shallow' way. While we are wounded, we often invite things into our lives that we would not have, if we were thinking 'rationally.' We usually think we can 'fix' those wounds in 2 ways: either recover what rejected it, or reject what rejected it (Revenge!). But, sadly, those never work.

Only God can heal those wounds of rejection. 1 Peter 2:4 says ..."As you come to Him, the living Stone--rejected by men but chosen by God and precious to Him--". Here we see the sovereignty and supremacy of our God in our lives if we are surrendered. I don't know about you, but that comforts me.

Beth says that He shuts a door so we won't accept something 'less' than what He planned for us, especially if we did not consult Him or wait for Him in the first place.
She also said that when we are rejected because of Him in us, He takes that quite personally and He takes care of that! She illustrated how all the love that you invested so freely that was reviled by that person was accepted by Christ. He holds it as precious.

When the session closed, our pastor invited all those who wanted to love deeply once again, to be healed of those wounds of rejection to come up to be prayed for. The altar was filled. I found my university pal there and we hugged. I could feel the agape love of God filling my heart.

Father, thank You for Your Spirit. Fill me with your love once again. Let that fact that I am chosen and precious to You pervade all that I do and say. Let the fact that those who hurt me are chosen and precious to You as well and enable me to see them and love them like You do. Let me love deeply and come alive with You again. I am totally unsatisfied with my 'shallow-love' lifestyle. Give me all that I need including Your wisdom to love fully and appropriately. In the awesome Name of Jesus, I pray, Amen.

We Are One In The Spirit

John 13:34-35 (The Holy Bible, NIV version)

"A new command I give you: Love one another.
As I have loved you, so you must love one another.
By this all men will know that you are my disciples,
if you love one another."


Last Sunday we travelled back from Muskoka where my son had his final quiz meet for the year. It was a 'dampening' weekend, the ongoing cold rain and gray skies quenched the exuberance of our Rexdale teams this year. What chilled me was not only the weather, but also the chilly looks from some people unused to the Rexdale 'volume'. We are quite the multicultural, exuberant bunch. We love to celebrate! We are also unlike others from a homogenous Caucasian community, where a specific type of behaviour is deemed acceptable. While most have become used to our differences, and dare I say, have begun to even like us, there are some 'new' ones whose looks of alarm and one man in particular with a look of smoldering contempt aimed at our Haitian youth pastor, that brought back the old memories of rejection because I was different.

But do you know what, I was also finishing my homework for the Beth Moore study, and was reading about agape love, the love whose origin is the heart of God. I felt the tug. "Show them that I love them". So when the 'new' team won an award, I went to hug that beautiful young teenager in front of her coaches. I congratulated her on an amazing award. God was making me see all who 'despise' me as 'perfect in Him.' So cool. I got to hug Jesus, I got to smile at Jesus.

I also realize that I am now consciously refusing to accept any 'cloaks' given to me by man--cloak of unworthiness, shame, victimization, contempt, etc. I am wearing a glorious cloak, Cloak of Acceptance in the Beloved. That is all I need. Yes! Christ in me, the Hope of glory.

Father, I pray that You will open our eyes to see those who have hurt us through Your eyes. Help us to activate Your love and so disarm Satan in his scheme to build angry walls between Your children. The love that You give goes deep and just yearns to be expressed. The love You give sees beyond the offensive act to a heart that needs Your love. Wow, what a glimpse of Who You are. Thank You, Lord. Love through me. In Jesus' Name, I pray, Amen.

Abba Father - Take Me Home - Acapella Company

I dedicate this to those who are longing to climb into the Father's lap today. I think about those suffering utter devastation in Myanmar right now; those children enslaved in Cambodia tortured and abused; those who felt the sting of rejection today; those who just want a home. Abba, Father, lead them to Your arms, so that they will know they are 'home' with You.

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Brian Doerksen, Refiner's Fire

Brian Doerksen, Refiner's Fire

I invite you to prayerfully sing along with me...

Refiner's Fire

Purify my heart
Let me be as gold
and precious silver
Purify my heart
Let me be as gold,
pure gold

Refiner's fire
My heart's one desire
Is to be holy
Set apart for You Lord
I choose to be holy
Set apart for You my Master
Ready to do Your will
Brian Doerksen / 1990 Mercy/Vineyard Publishing