Please, Lord, Pul--eeze?

Psalm 57:1-3

Amplified Bible (AMP)

¹ Be merciful and gracious to me, O God, be merciful and gracious to me, for my soul takes refuge and finds shelter and confidence in You; yes, in the shadow of Your wings will I take refuge and be confident until calamities and destructive storms are passed.

² I will cry to God Most High, Who performs on my behalf andrewards me [Who brings to pass His purposes for me and surely completes them]!

³ He will send from heaven and save me from the slanders andreproaches of him who would trample me down or swallow me up, and He will put him to shame.Selah [pause, and calmly think of that]! God will send forth His mercy and loving-kindness and His truth and faithfulness.

This past week, I confess I've wanted to curl up like a baby, put my hands over my ears, and close my eyes, cross my fingers, hoping beyond hope that I will wake up to realize that present circumstances were just a dream, not real. 
After all, God is the God of the impossible, right?


Instead I wake up and the circumstances are a little more desperate. 
My stomach is constantly in knots. Makes me realize how very far I have to go in grasping the releasing with thanks so that His peace pervades (Phil.4:6-7). My body just does not sync with the words I utter.
One day.


I've been reading a lot about faith. My last post revealed a 'word' given to me. And yes, you may ask, have I doubted since then?
Absolutely. Was my friend trying to conjure up a special word for me to make me feel better?
Was it perhaps my lack of faith that hampered God's outpouring?
Well, the fact remains that nothing can stop God's mercy. Not even me. It is totally undeserved. 
So that's that.
My family is so far away. They pray. My cyber friends pray.
I'm mostly concerned for my sons, their well being, spiritual, physical and mental.
And so, I will continue to cry out to the Only One Who is able and present.


The song that expresses my heart is: Rescue Me by Selah...



Deep is the river that I have to cross
Heavy the weight on my shoulder
I have discovered how great is the cost
Of trying alone to cross over
I try and I try but the current’s too strong
It’s pulling me under and my strength is gone
Don’t leave me stranded

Rescue me, my God and my King,
Water is rising and I cannot breathe,
Wrap your arms all around me and 
Carry me over (rescue me) Carry me over 

There is a bridge that is easy to cross
While all of our burdens are lifted
Peace is the land that is waiting for us
Lord, give me faith to believe it
Cause I’m in a storm but I’m willing to fight
I’ll overcome and I will not die with You by my side

Rescue me, my God and my King,
Water’s are rising and I cannot breathe,
Wrap your arms all around me and 
Carry me over (rescue me) Carry me over 

I will sail over the oceans and 
High over the mountains and 
Soar up to the Heavens
Here is my hand is my heart and my soul and my mind

Rescue me, my God and my King,
The water’s are rising and I cannot breathe,
Wrap your arms all around me and 
Carry me over 
Rescue me, my God and my King,
You are the only one who can save me
Wrap your arms all around me and 
Carry me over (rescue me)
Carry me over (rescue me) 
Carry me over (rescue me)