Oct. 14 - Looking Into The Eyes That Constantly Watches Me

Photo Credit: Dave Brosha (Used with his permission)

Verse of the Day:

And do not be conformed to this world [any longer with its superficial values and customs], but be transformed and progressively changed [as you mature spiritually] by the renewing of your mind [focusing on godly values and ethical attitudes], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His plan and purpose for you].

Romans 12:2 AMP

And from my reading today:

Psalm 84: 2; 5-7; 11-12

2. My soul (my life, my inner self) longs for and greatly desires the courts of the Lord;

My heart and my flesh sing for joy to the living God.

5-7. Blessed and greatly favored is the man whose strength is in You,

In whose heart are the highways to Zion.
6 Passing through the Valley of Weeping (Baca), they make it a place of springs;
The early rain also covers it with blessings.
7 They go from strength to strength [increasing in victorious power];
Each of them appears before God in Zion.

11-12 For the Lord God is a sun and shield;

The Lord bestows grace and favor and honor;
No good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly.
12 O Lord of hosts,
How blessed and greatly favored is the man who trusts in You [believing in You, relying on You, and committing himself to You with confident hope and expectation].

Oh, Lord, how I need You.

This morning, I found myself irritated by an indecisive slow driver and said, "Lord  give me grace", and within the next 3 seconds, I said "Look at this idiot driver..."

So Paul, I know what you meant when you said "15. For I do not understand my own actions [I am baffled and bewildered by them]. I do not practice what I want to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate [and yielding to my human nature, my worldliness—my sinful capacity].""...18 For I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my flesh [my human nature, my worldliness—my sinful capacity]. For the willingness [to do good] is present in me, but the doing of good is not. 19 For the good that I want to do, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want." (Romans 7:15; 18-19 AMP)

The struggle is real, Paul!

I smile anytime I think that I thought I was someone special, like one of God's favourites. I have been off FB since the beginning of October except to check and respond to messages. I am very active on FB. Well, has anyone commented they 'missed me'? Did anyone notice I was not posting?

Not a one, at least not a one who said anything.

I also know that if I am not in church, no one will notice or care. Some might be relieved. The only person who might care cannot attend because of chronic illness.

But there is One Who notices, One Whose notice I desperately seek. 

When I thought I had lost His attention, I died inside. 

But it was a lie. 

He was always looking. 

I just could not see His eyes. Those beautiful eyes I once looked into daily as I fell in love.

(See here.)

I want to experience that love all over again. 

To feel fully alive once again.

And so I ask You, God, to...

Breathe on me, Breath of God,

fill me with life anew,
that I may love what thou dost love,
and do what thou wouldst do. (Edwin Hatch)